So I’ve been back at uni for 2 months now and I’m already feeling stressed up to my eye balls. Being back has been so much harder than I ever imagined, I have so much to do and so little time to do it. I honestly thought that by the time October rolled around Milo would be sleeping through the night and I would have nap times and evenings to do my work. How wrong was I?!
Milo is a better sleeper than he used to be but still pretty terrible. I think he’s slept through the night maybe 2 nights in the 9 months he’s been on the planet. Lately I put him down to bed between 7 & 8pm but he’s awake within half an hour and it’s a bloody nightmare to get him back to sleep usually it’s about 10 he will go back down and then wake at 2, 4, 6 and then get up at 8am. Honestly though when will it end? I could cope with the wake ups in the night if he was actually in bed and stayed in bed after 7 so that I could get on with my work.
Though when would I have time to clean, eat, shower? I am so jealous of my former self who didn’t have to plan every little thing, I could just do what I wanted when I wanted. Being a mum is amazing and don’t think for one second I take it for granted, but being a student mum is a whole other story.
Ash does his best to help out when he can but his shift patterns are awful sometimes. Today he started at 8am and didn’t finish until 10pm, other nights he has to work away and so he is gone for two or three full days. My parents watch Milo occasionally for me but I hate asking people I always think it’s a huge burden. All of my problems would be solved by sleep. Today I put Milo down to nap and he’s asleep so I sit down with my laptop just doing a bit of research and as soon as I try and type he wakes up, of course. Then because he didn’t sleep long he’s a pure arse for the rest of the day having 10 minute snoozes here and there.
Anyway I just wanted to have a little rant/keep you updated because I feel so guilty that the blog is a little abandoned at the moment but i promise I’ll try and post when I can!
If you’ve been through this then please, please, please tell me how the bloody hell you managed. Please.